Today

Things never turn out how you expect them. Life is changing all time time. Today I feel like time is moving uncomfortably slow. I find that every song I listen to today has lyrics that match my life. The weather outside is beautiful and it makes me want to say or do something profound to change the current views of the world. I know that there is a spot open for me to fill when things in my life finally begin. This excites me, but the process of finding my grove in the world scares me more than anything, because I don't know if I can make it, and I don't know if I'll be happy when I get what I think will make me happy. I don't even know what makes me happy. I guess it would be to be surrounded by people who I love and love me. I wish I could see my future and then I would not be as scared. But I think I'll survive. We all do if we try.